Prologue 1

What’s written in a certain diary,

There’s something I want.

It’s something that probably means a lot to me.

There are other things I find important, but lumped together, you could say they were necessary.

The thing I want isn’t tangible, so I really don’t know if that’s the right idea or not.

I do have an idea of its shape, but I’m not that good at thinking nor am I diligent, so I’m not confident I’m on the right track.

Maybe if I was smarter or purer, I could come up with an answer that would convince myself and those around me.

If only I could properly explain and convey what I wanted. If only I could engross myself in it to the point that nothing else mattered to me.

In the end, I’m not the smartest person around, and I’m unfair, so I could come up with only one answer.

It’s just one, yet my idea of something genuine somehow doesn’t feel realistic.

That’s why, it doesn’t matter if I understand it, if I don’t understand it, if I’m dumb, if I’m unfair and cruel, I keep thinking of one idea after the other about what that genuine thing truly is.

But it feels like no matter which one I choose, I’d be completely wrong.

The thought that I could possibly end up with the wrong answer and be unable to take it back makes me incredibly scared.

I don’t want to be wrong.

I don’t want to lose it.

It doesn’t have to be right because I want to take those hands.

But I’m sure that’s not the answer that they want.

What I want and what they want are so similar, yet why are they so different?

But if that’s the only answer I can come up with, then I want to make sure I understand it no matter how hard it is. If it’s for that, I think I can hang in there.

But I get scared that the more I try, the more it’ll get farther away from me.

 

The truth is, I’d be fine with a lie.


19 thoughts on “Prologue 1

  1. Kinda sad, but true.. I feel this really shows us how Yui is actually a pretty smart girl… she’s just less knowledgeable at times, but she’s quite intelligent…

  2. I think that the part of ( The truth is, I’d be fine with a lie. ) it´s refers when Haruno asked yui, if she is going to betray yukino as the others girls that she met in the past, then Yui answered : No ( but in the final chapter of oregairu.zoku we see that Yui betrays Yukino ), it’s just my point of view.

  3. It doesn’t have to be right because I want to take those hands.

    Do anyone have an ideal of what does ‘take those hands’ mean? Am I right if I understand ‘those hands’ literally as Hachiman and Yukino’s hands?

  4. So this is YUI’s diary?

    “In the end, I’m not the smartest person around, and I’m unfair, so I could come up with only one answer.

    Feels like it.

  5. Uhg Yui is so dumb. To be contented with a lie is what made her so apart from Yukino and 8man. To be dumb in reality means to be dumb in philosophy…she’s just consistently dumb through and through.

    I can’t believe some people think that as smart.

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